can't call it living - for my family :)

someday, when the season's pass over
and i'll have grown older
i'll still be loving you
and we'll wonder
how we survived it out there
we must have been so scared
but i never stopped loving you

so when you feel like the skies are
fading to black
and the walls are closing in
i will be the one to calm your troubled heart

hold me, if only for a moment would you
be with me, and know that in one second you could keep me
in your arms, just never let me go
drift off, let me fall asleep
so i can dream of a world where only you and i exist
and to live without you, well there's no such thing
because without you- you can't call it living at all

somewhere on that dusty road your walking
just take my hand and walk with me
yeah, we'll run till the light hits the sky
my breath is nothing short of taken
and i could be mistaken
but is this what bliss feels like?

so when you feel that the skies are
fading to black
and the walls are closing in
i will be the one to calm your troubled heart

hold me, if only for a moment would you
be with me, and know that in one second you could keep me
in your arms and never let me go
drift off, let me fall asleep
so i can dream of a place where only you and i exist
and to live without you, well there's no such thing
because without you - you can't call it living at all

falling

i'm not so sure whats holding me back
i guess you could say i'm short on conversation
its not complicated, well, i'll admit that
its just in the back of my mind
i wanna know what your thinkin

i'm falling
please say that you will fall with me
i'm speachless
trying to spit out hints that might lead you
to what i'm attempting to say
and praying that you might feel the same way

its not hard to explain
and this is clearly a risk worth taking
i guess you could say i'm spell bound
but this spell isn't one worth breaking
its alright
its alright

i'm falling
please say that you will fall with me
i'm speachless
trying to spit out hints that might lead you
to what i'm attempting to say
and praying that you might feel the same way

you did it right

i never thought you'd ask me to let go
but all good things come with a big price tag
and the worthwhile stories
are left to dwell among the stars
we hear about what we can't see
and we take part in what we can't read more into

i never thought you'd take away the shame
and replace it with smiles to consume me
gratefully i greet the day
with glittered eyes
who knew?

what would you do
if you knew it was clearer on the other side?
and how would you say goodbye?
but who would you be
if you had the chance to live with peace of mind
knowing you did it right?

i didn't think you'd spare me the regret
and take back all the miscommunications
but all my mistakes must have taken so much space
still you give me everything and more

what would you do
if you knew it was clearer on the other side?
and how would you say goodbye?
but who would you be
if you had the chance to live with peace of mind
knowing you did it right?

what would you do

if you knew it was clearer on the other side?

and how would you make it right?
but who would you be
if you had the chance to live with peace of mind
knowing you've said goodbye?
knowing you did it right?

i think people can relate to this haha at least i hope they can... i wrote it when i was feelin a little down in the dumps :)

i'm spent
i'm wasting my breath
talking about how i'm doing just fine
oh yes, i'm doing alright
and i'm losing sleep
because i think too much about all of the little things
but don't we all?
i swore i wasn't gonna let it get to me

but who wants to know me
i would hope someone would take the time
because some people are so overrated
while others get left behind
and who's gonna notice me
if i slipped out from the crowd
if i hid my face
who knows this face, anyhow

i'm getting by and i'm doing it by myself
because i'm afraid to ask for anyone elses help
and i'm convinced i'll never feel just right at home
maybe its that i expect too much
if i lost it all maybe i'd find myself
maybe then i'd find
some reassurance

but who wants to know me
i would hope someone would take the time
because some people are so overrated
while others get left behind
and whos gonna notice me
if i slipped out from the crowd
if i hid my face
who knows this face, anyhow

its times i think i'm nothing when i seem to have everything
and after all i do i'm still trying to see through the rain
so i'll run as fast as i can back to the memories with the sweetest sound
will they want me back
who knows if they'll want me back
anyhow

because i wanted to be

i walked a couple streets today
just to feel the heat on my face
and i was far from home
because i wanted to be
and as the sun burned into my skin
i inhaled and breathed with the wind
and i was alone
because i wanted to be

and it felt as easy as it seems
because its only easy when its supposed to be
its not always easy because i'm weak
but i want to be

so i sat in the back seat and watched you drive
and i let my mind blank because i felt more alive
when i was gone than i ever did when i was here
and i didn't move an inch
because i forgot to exist
and i was alone
because i wanted to be

and it felt as easy as it seems
because its only easy when its supposed to be
its not always easy because i'm weak
but i want to be

i thought that it was better to feel
than to feel nothing at all
but i found that simply being
was better than being it all
and i didn't go home
because i wanted to be
and yet for once in my life
i didn't have to be anything

mariana likes this song haaa

counting the days
but i'm still caught wondering
caught in a phase
when two steps forward lead to one step right back

so how do i start moving forward again?
how do i relive what just ended
time's never ending
but it's not ending soon enough

they keep telling me that the sun will come out tomorrow
yeah, well, any day now would work just fine
and i'm beginning to believe
tomorrow's just another apology
tomorrow's just another day
tomorrow's just a different way
tomorrow's just another way to say
i'm sorry for today

expression like glass

baby you were standing
right in front of me
and as easy as it is for me to step up
and say hello
i can't find my feet
so i stay alone

there you were standing
right in front of me
but you were looking the other way
and i guess you couldn't hear
me calling out your name

finally you turn
your eyes meet mine
my heart paces one beat at a time
but you weren't pleased
so i hang my head
and sit tight

so paint the grass blue and call it the sky
because i'll be staring at the ground until the butterflies subside
so catch the wind and whisper sweet
because maybe then it will guide my feet gently back
to where you are
that's the only place
you're ever gonna find me

patience wears and tears
my eyes are glued
is this what i've bargained for?
now i'm stuck on you
watch you dance around words
yeah, they're dancing you right out of my view
well i hope you find something to live for
even if its not me

so paint the grass blue and call it the sky
because i'll be staring at the ground until the butterflies subside
so catch the wind and whisper sweet
and maybe then it will guide my feet gently back
to where you are
thats the only place
i want you to find me

its not like we've done anything wrong
but the silence was wasted for oh too long
and i've just been waiting
for you to find me

an expression like glass makes me breakable
expression like glass means i'm breakable